twilight couples haha

Twilight :) and pictures I love lol

LAST BLOG EVER....

Well , I graduated on Saturday the 14th of june 2008. IT WAS AWESOME! and well lol this is the last time I will ever have to write a blog ever. I was asked to comment on my first blog I wrote this year. well lol it sounds like I Was a pretty confused girl. But hey lol I MADE IT! regaurdless of everything that has happened this year. my first blog I talked about my summer and everything that happened over the summer. it sounds like I had a lot of changes over the summer. but oh well lol...it was nothing compared to this year I am sure. you know now that I am a short two days away from being compleatly free of high school...it's not so scary. It's sad that it is all over but...I am no longer scared. I am kind of excited to see what the next step in my life will be. I know I have college in january, but, I have a couple free months before I start school. I imagine I will move, and then I guess I will get a job and see how much I can save for schooling:) I sure hope all of my plans work out for me.

10 DAYS!!! AND COUNTING!

lol yay yay yay yay yay yah!! only one more weekend of waiting! then 5 more days of school! and then GRAD!!!
OMG LOL crunch time is almost over and I AM GONNA MAKE IT! i am too excited right now! Grad is going to be awesome!

lol ok I will stop Gloating about grad haha

anyways i love this song!!!

it is called "Follow me" by Uncle Kracker.
i love the beat of this song and I can't wait to listen to it ahahah
if you get the chance definatly go check it out on youtube people!




You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when im with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

And I worry 'bout the ring you wear
Cause as long as no one knows
That nobody can care
Your fellin guilty
And I'm well aware
But you don't look ashamed
And baby I'm not scared
Im singin...

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Solo

Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
It better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go stranded
We'll be alright if you don't ask me to stay

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when im with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Graduation!!

well graduation is coming up and I am so looking forward to it!!
I can't wait! and the scary part is it is only like 2 1\2 weeks away!
i am excited:) I love my dress , and daniella is gonna do my hair and make-up and I have two wonderful escorts lined up:):) Todd and Darin:) they are both gonna look so awesome!!! I can't wait to see them in thier tuxes!

there is only one bad thing about Grad..it being only 3 weeks away means it crunch time!!! we have to crack down and get those assingments in and make sure we are above 50% or grad goes BYE BYE for us. then after grad it's exam week!! YAY haha not!! oh well though I am looking forward to it being all over and done with!

also with Grad so fast approaching it is time to think of what we want after Grad...like where we are going..or are we sticking around clinton for awhile...or do we need to go and get jobs right away and all that fun stuff! I have an offer of a really good job in Alberta....but...i don't know if it is my thing..It is so far away and I just don't know if I can do it! it's a pretty scary thought. especially when I would need to be there on july 1st! it's just so sudden...a major life change very suddenly. and as silly as this may sound...I think I have to do this because it scares me..if that makes any sense...maybe I am to settled in my life...who knows..I sure don't...i guess I think even as scary as moving away from everything and everyone I know is..I have this feeling I will regret it is I don't..you know?

oh well it's all something to wonder about I guess!!

BUT YAY FOR GRAD... and not so yay for the decisions along with it...but we all have to grow up at some point.

some of my favourite quotes

these are a few quotes that I love.....and that mean a lot to me because they are so true of me....so true.......

1. I Try to hold onto my past so much, that at times it gets in the way of my life today.....

2.I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all...

3. love me for who I am not who you want me to be

4. hope and reality are two very diffrent things

5.to the world you may be one person...but to one person, you may be the world.

6. love is like the wind..you can't always see it..but you feel it.

7. blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting.

8. this above all: be true to yourself

9. A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words

10.love is always bestowed as a gift: freely , willingly, and without expectation....we don't love to be loved: we love to love.

Hmmmmm.......lost myself

I think I have lost myself...I mean I really think that I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know this person....the person not living at home...the person who is almost failing and not grading..the person who doesn't know who she is...I never wanted to be like this..everyone looks at me so disappointed...like I should absolutly know better than to screw up like this..but does anyone see that I am trying????? I AM TRYING.... All I can do right now is do the best I can and after that....it's up to fate to decide what happens to me...but for now...I would like it if people could stop giving me the "oh good..she came to school today" looks and " oh dear She lent car to todd again" looks...by the way people...I don't lend him my car very often...and I trust him in in and thats all that should matter...it's my car and I am the one out a car in the end, so I don't see why it should be any concern of everyone else...but I do know that everyone is only trying to help me...I know that...and I appriciate it...I DO APPRICIATE IT REALLY.I know everyone loves me and is only trying to help me see what is best. I am lucky to have so many people that care:) I am just lost at the moment and when I find myself I will be the Teri everyone Knows and expects me to be...Until then ...please try and Accept the Teri that I am right now...

if your not the one lol

this is a Beautiful song. I first heard it one night when i was not having a very good night:) but eh...the song has stuck with me since that night. It`s called
if your not the one by Daniel Bedingfield.


here read the lyrics and if you get a chance listen to it on youtube or sumthing. you won`t regret it!



DANIEL BEDINGFIELD LYRICS

"If You're Not The One"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

smile:)

today`s blog will be filled with things that make me smile:)

1. my family
2. my friends
3.books
4. movies
5.learning
6.dancing
7.music
8.jokes
9. a smile from another
10.thinking of the future


all of these things are things that make me happy and make me smile. there is no point in living if you can`t smile:) you know they say ``you havn`t lived until you`ve found something you would die for.

loverly....(L)

well well well lol
life is crazy.... and I don't know what to do and how to fix it....but whatever...I am going to let life take its course and see what happens...somethings just aren't meant to be I guess. but anyways

I love this song!!!! it's called I'm sorry By Buck Cherry. I love the lyrics and just the general meaning behind the song. It's nice to think that I guy could say sorry and mean it....for a change.


SORRY - BUCKCHERRY!

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby, Yeah.
I'm sorry.

well well well lol

hmm well life is pretty docile at the moment. but i bought my grad dress! and I have an escort decided on and I even know where I am going to college:) it finally feels like life and grad is coming toghether:)I am finally starting to get excited!!!!!
All my friends seem to be doing well and I am happy. I want to give a big shout out to my grandpa and my mom who are at the coast right now because my grandpa just had hip surgery. HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER GRANDPA AND I LOVE YOU:)

Lovely

WOW DOES THIS SONG DESCRIBE MY LIFE AT ALL?? hahaha well my biggest news for the week is that I GOT ACCEPTED TO COLLEGE!!! I will be taking my bachelor of arts at Thompson Rivers University in Kamloops. Hopefully this is my first step towards becoming a high school teacher. YES i am going to school just to come back to school but hey ....I never have to grow up that way! and when I come back...I get to make the rules! lol i think it will be good for me to get out of clinton and expierience life. even if I am only going to Kamloops! I might eventually have to transfer to UBC to finish my degree but I think all of this is good for me! I COULD NOT STOP SMILING YESTERDAY! it is the first step after high school that I am taking and it is definatly kind of scary all right. that is why I choose this song. I am just a girl trying to find her place in this world right now.



TAYLOR SWIFT

A place in this world

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
cause I'm still trying to figure it out
don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
trying to see through the rain coming down
even though I'm not the only one
who feels the way I do.

CHORUS
I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
could you tell me what more do I need
and tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
but that's ok

REPEAT CHORUS

maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
but I'm ready to fly..

I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
Oh I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
OH I'm alone, On my own, and that's all I know
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Oh I'm just a girl,
Oh I’m just a girl
Oh I’m just a girl

Sad....kinda

do you ever feel like you can't stop something?? you want to be ok and you want to be happy but you aren't? well I am in a situation right now where I am not happy and ...me being unhappy is going to hurt two friends....and ....i am afriad they will blame me.I know they will......and its not like I don't know its my fault. It is my fault....i just don't know how to fix it now. I don't know what to do now. what can I do now? Either way no matter what I do...someone is going to end up hurt. And I can't stop it. I can't. It doesn't work that way. at all. so I think If I remove myself from the picture..maybe this will work. I think it will. I think If I just take myself away from the porblem..then there won't be a problem. Maybe I will gain some respect too.

MOVED!!

lol well the most exciting piece of news in my world is that I moved out of 16 mile and I am now living with friends In clinton to be closer to school and work. My parents are busy right now working and calving out the cows they recently bought and are not home a lot. my sister kim is working right now near merrit so she is not home a lot either so I don't like being in 16 mile and being lonely. I will most likely be spending my weekends with my family in bridge lake or 16 mile so I will see them as often as possible. lol so all in all I am happy in clinton right now and I am hoping that I can focus more on my schooling now:) so that is my most exciting news to date:)

hahah funny......anyone who knows me will find this amusing...

Closets By the Wilkinsons

You say you'll call when the time is right, yeah right
You must think there's something better
You just haven't met her
I should put my life on hold and wait
You'll be back when you're ready
Funny you expect me
To gather dust, to trust that much

Chorus:Baby, I don't hang in closets
Baby, I don't sit on shelves
Like a coat that's out of fashion
While you go and try on something else
I don't stay in storage like your Beatle albums do
Baby, I don't hang in closets
Oh, waiting 'round for you

You say we're moving a bit too fast, that's all
You want me to be patient, selfish expectation
When you decide that my love fits you just right
You want me to be here when you see your way clear
To carry on, that's where you're wrong

Chorus:Baby, I don't hang in closets
Baby, I don't sit on shelves
Like a coat that's out of fashion
While you go and try on something else
I don't stay in storage like your Beatle albums do
Baby, I don't hang in closets
Oh, waiting 'round for you

I'm not a hand me down
Wont be your place to fall
And I wont be around
When you say you love me after all

2nd Chorus:Baby, I don't hang in closets
Baby, I don't sit on shelves
Like a coat that's out of fashion
While you go and try on something elseS
tacked up in the corner
Just yesterday's news
Baby, I don't hang in closets
Oh, I don't hang in closets
Waiting 'round for you
Waiting 'round for you

This is me Your Talking to

I heard this song last night and I instantly fell in Love with It. I love the melody and the lyrics. for anyone raised in clinton you will acutly feel the lyrics. Small Towns are awesome to grow up in but they are terrible to try and hold a relationship toghether in. Darn near immpossible to. but hey....I love Clinton. even though it can be suffocating sometimes. It's the only home I have ever known and when it comes my time to leave.....I will miss the small town feeling. It's suffocating , but familar and comfortable.

This is me your talking too --- Trisha Yearwood.

This was bound to happen

It was just a matter of time

This town is just too small for

Us to really say goodbye

You're smiling that smile that

You get when you're nervous

Like you don't quite know what to do

But this is me you're talking to

This is me you're talking to

I've heard you met somebody

It didn't take you very long

And I'll admit it isn't easy Knowing you've moved on

But I can see how you could make any woman

Fall deep in love with you

This is me you're talking to

Me, the one who really knows you

Me, the one whose heart you've broken

Me, the one who was still hopin'

You might be missing me

We don't have to do this

We don't have to act like friends

As much as I would love to

I really just don't think I can

You don't have to tell me that you really love me

After all we have been through'

Cause this is me you're talking to

Me, the one who really knows you

Me, the one whose heart you've broken

Me, the one who was still hopin'

You might be missing me

Oh, and you don't have to say that you do

This is me you're talking to

This is me you're talking to

Good luck and Goodbye

Most of you Know that Todd moved to alberta and is working over there. as much as it makes me sad and I will miss him it is what he needed to do and I am happy for him. I hope he is happy and makes a go of it over there. so this song is to say goodbye and good luck!!!

Time of your Life By Green day

Another turning point;

a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;

directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test

and don't ask why.

It's not a question

but a lesson learned in time.It's something unpredictable

but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs

and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf

In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories

and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable

but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

(music break)

It's something unpredictable

but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable

but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

Housesitting

well for the next two weeks I am going to be housesitting in 16 mile. I will be looking after An adorable dog, Ashera , 3 horses and I don't know how many cats. It is a really nice house and I enjoy staying there. I do get lonely sometimes but For the first night I had friends stay with me so it was all right:) anyways lol i better go but if i am not around town much in the next two weeks you know why!!!(L)(L)

R.I.P (L) Heath Ledger (L)

recently Heath Ledger , a very VERY good actor, was found dead in his apartment. I find this incrediably sad. especially as he has a two year old daughter with ex wife Michelle Williams.

he is perhaps most famous for his role in Brokeback Mountain as one of the sexually confused cowboys. he recieved acadmey awards for his role as Ennis del Mar.

one of my favorite movies he starred in was The patriot. he played young Gabriel Martin. I like how he took a lot of emotional parts. it seemed as though he liked a challenge.

I also love his performance in A knights tale. he played a young determined kid determind to be a knight, sir william thatcher.

his last finished role that he described as "Stressful" was that of the joker in a remake of batman called "The Dark Knight"

Sadly , people think that his death is a result of an overdose. I however choose to believe (like his family does) that his death was an accident.

I believe that all that can be said is R.I.P

Life in general

Life in general is ok. My sister just left to head up north to dawson creek and i am going to miss her so much:( but i might get to go and see her for spring break:) My Mom also wants to take a trip to vancouver to look for grad dresses and maybe tour UBC on spring break too. I am looking forward to spring break.:) i also have a pretty busy month coming up too. I am probaly babysitting for my friends jon and michelle next week. and after that I am housesitting for two weeks at a place in 16 mile!! so I have quite the busy january coming up. also it will be the change of semester which i am really looking forward to at the end of January. I am ready for some new classes and a change of pace.

ANYHOW lol

life is ok and i hope to have wheels within a few weeks! (since i sold my sister my truck and i now get to buy my own car!)

Blue October --- Hate Me Lyrics

WOW!! this song is so sad:( ...it is amazing how true the lyrics in this song are. there are so many people in the world today that are fighting alcoholism. It is a major issue in Canada and throughout the entire world. It is Amazing how many people fight with this common battle everyday and how many innocent family members and friends are hurt. It's sad really. but people do beat it. and when they are over the worst of it ....they realize how important friends and family are to them. I hope I never loose sight of that, but if i do....I have confridence that friends and family will stand by me....even if I am letting them down. I hope I am always strong enough to be there for those I love.





BLUE OCTOBER LYRICS

"Hate Me"
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If your dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)

(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you are doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous,
too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
(If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me)

BREAKING DOWN!!!

well lol

i was on my way home from a weekend in kamloops and i was driving my mom's car. well generally I would say my mom's car was more reliable than my truck. well apprently not lol. Driving along and all of a sudden there is steam coming out of the hood. great. I am not even halfway home by this point. This being the first time ever breaking down I did what any normal 18 year old that is not mechanically inclined would do. called my dad! After that my mom came and picked me up and she called BCAA. we got it towed to clinton. and the good news??? I was ONLY half an hour late for work at the cordial! lol so we got a call a day or so later and they said that it was simple and easily fixed. so after school I walked down and picked it up. started driving home and i thought to myself it's a little chilly. so The heat going full blast I head home. 5 minites later I put my hand to the vent and feel only cold air blowing. huh , wierd..... I keep driving none the less and hope it will be warmer at home in the house. just as I come in sight of the painted hills right before 16 mile I see a familar sight. more steam!!! uuuggg not again i think to my self. I pull over and sure enough my tempature gage reads HOT! great. I check my purse for my cell phone to yes , call mommy and Daddy.and SURPRISE SURPRISE no cell phone. ok so I will walk to a house. look around....can't see any houses quite yet. ok so i will wait for some nice , good citizen to stop and assist me right?? well you would not believe how many people simply blew by me. I could just see what was going through thier head. "SUCKS TO BE YOU!" oh well...THANKS A LOT PEOPLE! finally someone stops and asks if i am ok. I thank them and borrow a cell phone to call home. my sister and the Tow truck soon arrive. shivering but none the worse for wear, I explain what happened. (again.) so we learn later on that the head gasget has gone and that it is not so simple to repair. so in otherwords my mom is out of a car for awhile. and next time SHE will be picking it up from the shop!!! lol