Graduation!!

well graduation is coming up and I am so looking forward to it!!
I can't wait! and the scary part is it is only like 2 1\2 weeks away!
i am excited:) I love my dress , and daniella is gonna do my hair and make-up and I have two wonderful escorts lined up:):) Todd and Darin:) they are both gonna look so awesome!!! I can't wait to see them in thier tuxes!

there is only one bad thing about Grad..it being only 3 weeks away means it crunch time!!! we have to crack down and get those assingments in and make sure we are above 50% or grad goes BYE BYE for us. then after grad it's exam week!! YAY haha not!! oh well though I am looking forward to it being all over and done with!

also with Grad so fast approaching it is time to think of what we want after Grad...like where we are going..or are we sticking around clinton for awhile...or do we need to go and get jobs right away and all that fun stuff! I have an offer of a really good job in Alberta....but...i don't know if it is my thing..It is so far away and I just don't know if I can do it! it's a pretty scary thought. especially when I would need to be there on july 1st! it's just so sudden...a major life change very suddenly. and as silly as this may sound...I think I have to do this because it scares me..if that makes any sense...maybe I am to settled in my life...who knows..I sure don't...i guess I think even as scary as moving away from everything and everyone I know is..I have this feeling I will regret it is I don't..you know?

oh well it's all something to wonder about I guess!!

BUT YAY FOR GRAD... and not so yay for the decisions along with it...but we all have to grow up at some point.

some of my favourite quotes

these are a few quotes that I love.....and that mean a lot to me because they are so true of me....so true.......

1. I Try to hold onto my past so much, that at times it gets in the way of my life today.....

2.I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all...

3. love me for who I am not who you want me to be

4. hope and reality are two very diffrent things

5.to the world you may be one person...but to one person, you may be the world.

6. love is like the wind..you can't always see it..but you feel it.

7. blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting.

8. this above all: be true to yourself

9. A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words

10.love is always bestowed as a gift: freely , willingly, and without expectation....we don't love to be loved: we love to love.

Hmmmmm.......lost myself

I think I have lost myself...I mean I really think that I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know this person....the person not living at home...the person who is almost failing and not grading..the person who doesn't know who she is...I never wanted to be like this..everyone looks at me so disappointed...like I should absolutly know better than to screw up like this..but does anyone see that I am trying????? I AM TRYING.... All I can do right now is do the best I can and after that....it's up to fate to decide what happens to me...but for now...I would like it if people could stop giving me the "oh good..she came to school today" looks and " oh dear She lent car to todd again" looks...by the way people...I don't lend him my car very often...and I trust him in in and thats all that should matter...it's my car and I am the one out a car in the end, so I don't see why it should be any concern of everyone else...but I do know that everyone is only trying to help me...I know that...and I appriciate it...I DO APPRICIATE IT REALLY.I know everyone loves me and is only trying to help me see what is best. I am lucky to have so many people that care:) I am just lost at the moment and when I find myself I will be the Teri everyone Knows and expects me to be...Until then ...please try and Accept the Teri that I am right now...