happy happy happy.....

lol well life is getting better:):):):)

i guess lol

my sister is home for christmas and i am looking forward to christmas. hoping to have a good time:):) so .....lol ......M*E*R*R*Y C*H*R*I*S*T*M*A*S !!!!

in the spirt of christmas I thought I would put a few cute christmas pics up and My favorite Christmas song:):):)

Once upon a December!

Dancing bears,

Painted wings

Things I almost remember

And a song someone sings

Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm

Horses prance through a silver storm

Figures dancing gracefully

Across my memory...

Far away, long ago

Glowing dim as an ember,

Things my heart used to know,

Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm

Horses prance through a silver storm

Figures dancing gracefully

Across my memory...

Far away, long ago

Glowing dim as an ember,

Things my heart used to know,

Things it yearns to remember...

And a song someone sings

Once upon a December

cute song......wish it were True lol

this song is wow......made me almost cry. this is one of my songs now. This is my sad song now. whenever i am down i listen to this song. somehow it makes me feel better. It makes me feel like one day things will change. and one day things will be diffrent. better.




Hedley - For The Nights I Can't Remember lyrics

[Verse 1:]I see it in the way you would do
When no one else could ever get through
Holding back till I come around
Time and time again you wait for me to come in
And did you really look my way? Cuz no one coulda seen this coming
I would never let you down
If I was running backwards in full time
[Bridge:]So I can and I will and you'll see your hero come running
Over and over tonight

[Chorus:]And I do wanna love you
If you see me running back
And I do wanna try
Because if falling for you girl is crazy
Then I'm going out of my mind
So hold back your tears this time

[Verse 2:]Me, I'm used to being tired and bloody
But you believed that I could be somebody
You put your world on hold for me
Gave away to follow failure through the fire
I need you to know I will
Believe me girl I'm so tired of running
I just wanna hold your hand
Stare at you like you've got everything I need
[Bridge:]And I can so I will and you'll see your hero come running
Over and over tonight

[Chorus:]And I do wanna love you
If you see me running back
And I do wanna try
Because if falling for you girl is crazy
Then I'm going out of my mind
So hold back your tears this time

[Verse 3:]And what if I never said to you I was dynamite
And what if I never told you I'm afraid to cry
What if I never let you down
And said I'm sorry for the nights I can't remember
What if I never said to you I would try
Yeah Yeah Yeaahh
[Chorus:]And I do wanna love you
(If you see me running back)
And I do wanna try
Because if falling for you girl is crazy
Then I'm going out of my mind
So hold back your tears this time
[Repeat Chorus]
Hold back your tears this time
Ooooh Ooooh

Chase and Macenzie:):)

recently I have been babysitting a couple of kids named Chase and Macenzie. they are so adorable. althought they get on my nerves from time to time they are great kids:) i really enjoy babysitting them and Macenzie is more like a little sis now lol. anyways this is a picture of chase. i don't have one of kenzi yet but when i do i will post it:)

This is my song right now:) it describes my thoughts quite well...

this song is well....it describes me a little. I listen to it a lot and it helps me keep my mind off of everything:) and if anyone wants to understand me ...you can listen to this song and understand. there are things sometimes that control my life. people that control me. things out of my control that effect me. This song describes my fight to free myself. and hopefully people understand.







Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

For a good friend.......your not a thorn inside of me....

This is a really good song that means a lot to a good friend of mine. i never really understood until I read the lyrics. but hey. there is a song for everyone. this isn't mine but one day when i get up the nerve i will tell you all my song.


Crossfade-- Dead skin.


So I'm the king of all these things of this mess I have made
Such a waste what a shame my whole life is a fake
Well I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at you for years
The alcohol the demerol these things never could replace
What a minute with you could do to put a smile on my face
I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at me for years
I can't get out of this dead skin I can't shed my skin
I'm not sure where to begin why can't I begin again
I can't get under my dead skin I can't shed my skin
Can I sllep 'til then

Phenobarbitol and alocohol these two surely will do
To knock me out keep me down at least a day or two
When I'm awake I can taste how bitter I've become
And it's more than I can bear somedays I pray someone will blow me away
Make it quick but let it burn so I can feel my life fade
Well I'm a waste and I can taste how bitter I've become
And it's more than I can bear
I can't shed my skin
I can't shed my skin

if i could only say.....

if i could only say what I really felt i would tell you i love you .....even tho i kno it's wrong. if i could only say what i really meant i would tell you i don't want you to hurt. if i could only cry...you'd kno......if i could only make it known what you all mean to me.....if you could only know .....I don't blame you i blame me......I struggle day to day with the feelings i know you don't have. but please know.....no matter how it hurts ....i will never turn my back......i will never be the person that turns there back.......I love you and that will never change. i will only love you in a diffrent way. in a diffrent time , in a diffrent day , you never know what may have been. but for now.....FRIENDS FOR LIFE......forever and always you'll be there for me and I for you. friendship is enough for me. i would rather be your friend than your nothing. and in the meantime darling......give me time and i will be the friend you want and the friend you need.

cute Bumper stickers and what they remind me of:)

I love this sticker, because it reminds me that guys and Relationships are not what i will remember about high school. i will remember my friends and what we shared.

I love this sticker because it reminds me that you can't care what everyone thinks all the time. no one is perfect no matter how hard they try.

I love this sticker because it reminds me that you have no control over life and while something may seem bad , later on you may look back and say "that made me a stronger person."