lost in translation..

I hear from everyone all the time that they hate those in between times...those growing pains...that time where you can see the future , feel the greatness to come...yet you are still stuck in that awkward in between time...where life still blows the big one sometimes...lol A great song I found to describe what I am talking about actually is sung by Britney spears...here you can read it and see what I mean,



"I'm Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman"

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...

[Chorus:]
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

[Verse 2]
I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

[Chorus]

I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.

I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.



I guess I am in one of those in between times and I am not exactlly sure how to go about transitioning....I see greatness...i even feel how awesome and amazing things will be...the only question I have is how long????? I know you can't put a time limit on all things but....come on really....I don't know how much longer we can all do this...were losing things we never wanted to and turning in directions for comfort and distraction that are new and diffrent and I don't know where we will end up after we come out of this transition....i'm just lost in the translation right now...

A whole new world :)

well I am living in a whole new world :) lots of changes but I have discovered many things about myself along the way. I am discovering I am stronger than I thought and I like it! I am growing more confident in myself which is a good thing. my low self- esteem has held me back in my life but NO MORE! I know that I can't expect others to believe in me and my abilities if I do not believe in myself. I am a strong, capable woman who is on a path to self-discovery...I am proud of the person I have become and the woman that I am becoming..I am testing my own boundaries and am figuring out I am capable of so much more than I ever could have imagined.

New Chapter :)

well a new chapter has begun in my life. Ive moved (with a LOT of help) got a job and the next step is school :) I don't know what is in store for me , but, its a step in the right direction I know that....it has to be...otherwise i am at a loss at what to do. I need some direction in my life or i lose sight of my goals and then i just start living everyone elses life...because its easier to follow than it is to lead. there is a leader in my somewhere i just have to find her and i will one day. i just hope that day is soon. I am looking forward to my days now because I know each day could hold something new. opportunity surronds me. I am a coward if i don't take some risks and see where this path leads me. its all there in front of me now. I only have myself to blame if i can't at least try. As scary as all this is...I know in my heart it will be good for me. and I have decided to follow my heart on this one. I have the support from everywhere and everyone...and the opportunity..now its all on me....well no pressure...everyone has defining moments and I guess this is one of mine. ive come a long way from that little girl hugging her big cousin on the couch in her pochahontas nightgown...and its time to act it.