Tuesday, October 30, 2007

ok so.....


well life is slowly getting better......

i might be coming to stay in town for awhile which will be good. and i have actually talked to a lot of the people that i needed to talk to ...and well it helped. i have come to some drastic decisions about my life....and there are several things i need to change and several people that i need to remove from my life...maybe not forever but for awhile at least. just to unncomplicate my life. i think moving out (well not moving out but staying away for awhile) from my place will help. i am just not happy there at the moment. and i want to be near my friends. they seem to be the only ones who understand:( but like i said life is slowly getting better:)

Halloween!


I am going to Kammy for Halloween!!!

i am heading over with Todd and Katy and we are taking her to surprise Ryan! and then I get to go and party with kyle and Darin!!!! yay!!! halloween will be awesome! (i hope) lol the only bad thing is i have to work the next day at three:( or maybe even 2:(

but oh well!

i plan to have fun well i can!!

and i have not been out and just had fun in awhile!

but anywho! halloween in kammy here i come!!! lol

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Life sucks at the moment!


i can't believe how awful things are right now!!

:(:(:(:(:(

i just don't know what to do anymore

all of my friends are having problems....and i just don't how to help any of them! i mean wow ok.......holy crap......i need just one non-stressful day where i can just chill and realx and not worry about anything!! i need to just get out and have some fun! (for a change) life is just complicated but i am not gonna really get into it anymore right now. I just .....need an escape.....and all my exits at the moment are blocked.....by parents...By friends...By teachers....By sisters.....By ex's.....i mean everything seems to be confusing and wrong at the moment. but i am hoping maybe getting out on my own will help. just handling my own life for a change might help.....

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Well well well


hmmm....life is messed up right about now! I have had kind of a rough month. my birthday kinda sucked.....and my mom's dog got hit on the road:( and i had to bury her:(. and well I just feel kinda lost right now. I am debating whether or not to start staying in town during the week. and I also am maybe looking into doing a semester abroad! in great britain leaving in january. I am kinda confused at the moment as to whether or not I should go.....AND ....i feel bad about either way leaving my mom....and my dad. and I have not seen my sister in months ....i unno i just well.....i don't know what to do at the moment.......like i said i am lost. but hey i mean ...maybe i will be happier stayin in town somewhere..or maybe i won't. Daniella has already said it was ok if i did stay at her place....which means i would get to see jane all the time:) and that would be awesome! and well yah...i unno really what is going to happen but ...i guess i better decide soon!!!! i am just worried about maybe leaving my parents. I would see them a lot less living in town during the week. but then again i am 18 and i am going to have to get used to that one of these days! lol especially if i am going to go to college next year!:) oh well i will figure this all out........EVENTUALLY

Thursday, October 11, 2007

A really cute song!

this song is adorable and kinda helped me through a rough time and i think we could all relate to the words said.
here goes.

I'll get over you
Dj Jay.

From the very 1st moment u caught my eye
you were like nothing i've eva seen in ma life
i caught your attention as you passed me a smile
you bought me a drink we talked for awhile
bout amazing things
of what life brings

then we kissed and said goodbye

I'll get ova u

don't think you can get me down
cuz i've been on lower ground

as long as ur not around
i'll make it through and

I'll get ova u
yes u are not worth my heart

you'll never hurt any part
of me again
cuz i'll start
without you

and i'll get ova u

I've been walking around with my head in the clouds
sweet talks taking me to shivering heights

shared the most intimate secrets my love
but if your words are no longer enough
to fufill my needs
replace the sheets
that are so cold every night

CHORUS: I'll get over you
don't think you can get me down
'cause i've been on lower ground

as long as you're not around
i'll make it trough and
i'll get over you

guess you were not worth my heart

you'll never hurt any part of me again
'cause i'll start without you and
'ill get over you

there are no good intentions in your cruel game
you play with so many we're all the same
i should have known beauty's but skin-deep
i was flying high i was falling deep
with your heart of stone
just leave me alone
i might not resist your call
CHORUS: I'll get over you
don't think you can get me down '
cause i've been on lower ground

as long as you're not around
i'll make it trough and
i'll get over you

guess you were not worth my heart

you'll never hurt any part
of me again
'cause i'll start
without you and
'ill get over you

don't think you can get me down
'cause i've been on lower ground
as long as you're not around
i'll make it trough and
i'll get over you!!!

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

My birthday!!!!


my birthday is coming up this saturday and i am so excited!!!!


I can't wait for it to be SATURDAY!


i will be 18 years old!! I can't wait!


i am just gonna have fun with my friends and ...relax for a change.


i am hoping it will be everything i hope for!


Thursday, October 4, 2007

Wednesday, October 3, 2007